I  saw this letter while I was browsing in the internet. Its such a touching letter!!

I know you are gone but I still can’t stop thinking about you. Sometimes I think, if I could plant a rose bush for every time I thought of you, I’d forever walk in that rose garden. The time we spent together was one of the defining moments of my life. It changed me in ways I can never fully grasp yet. I may have a hard time expressing my love but you melted my heart. Somehow you did. I never knew what love was until we met. I never thought I was capable of that kind of love. Similarly, I never thought that I was capable of so much hurt and bitterness. You have touched my heart in ways I can never imagine. I think once you love someone, you are marked for life. You were once part of my life and I would carry that with me for the rest of my life. I don’t know if you can fully understand what you did to me.

It hurts because you  went away without even saying goodbye. It wasn’t just that. I trusted you to take care of me. I trusted that you would be there for me, always love me, and not take advantage of my vulnerability. But you did. You took advantage and then left me alone. It hurt because you never explained why you did something so terrible.

 When someone you love betrays you, it will leave a lasting scar. But I don’t blame you. You did what you had to do because of reasons still unknown to me. And that is what hurts. It’s losing the trust and not getting an explanation why you could do something like that hurts me most. Have I not given you my love, my body and my soul? I gave you everything.  But perhaps love isn’t enough to make you stay. Love isn’t enough to make you happy. But it wasn’t your fault. It wasn’t you. It was the relationship. We had an impossible relationship from the beginning.  But I don’t regret anymore. At least, I’ll carry the memories with me. And who knows? Maybe because of what we went through, we’ll eventually find happiness.

 When I met you, I was at that point in my life when I started to question everything. I was sad and alone. You were there for me. You liked me. And I wanted someone to fall in love with me. I guess, I didn’t want you to just like me. I wanted you to fall in love with me. I wanted you to love me because I never felt that at home. I never felt loved. I never felt needed. And you seem to have needed me. You seem to have loved me. And for that, I’m very grateful. I was so touched by that. I felt so loved and so needed by you. I felt so important. In my heart, I know what I felt and I know what I experienced. I guess I had wanted you to read my mind. I had wanted you to read right through me so I wouldn’t have to explain what was in my heart. But perhaps you never did.

 I won’t ever forget the kisses that you gave me. The sweet kisses, tender touch. I have some wonderful memories. Memories of your kiss, your touch, smell of your body, your voice. Your first touch, your first kiss changed my life for forever.  I felt dazed for days afterwards. I can not take that special moment out of my mind; the only stolen moment when I was laying in your arms and you spoke to me your intimate thoughts, your frustrations, and your love for me. When you said, I was the sweetest thing ever happened to you. At that moment, I felt most loved by you. I felt new, I felt fresh. I forgot all the pain and frustration I had been through in my life. And I still hold on to that memory when I feel lonely. At least, I could say to myself that once upon a time, someone had loved me.  And that’s what I’ve always wanted from you. To be loved by you. I guess I always wanted you to love me and to continue to love me even if we’re no longer together. So I admit that part, I’m selfish. I wanted to go to sleep at nights knowing that somewhere out there in the world, was a guy who loved me and who thought of me.

 In a way, you have taught me how to love. Love should be about the simple things. Love shouldn’t be about the grand romantic gestures. It shouldn’t be about giving flowers or giving chocolates. Love should be about the simple things– to profess one’s love to someone, a simple kiss on the forehead, a touch on the hands, a kiss on the shoulder, noticing simple little things of each other. Love should be about the simple things. You’ve taught me that. I know you will love someone else. I feel sad that someone else will receive your kisses. I feel sad that you will be holding someone else’s life. But love evolves. Love grows. And you shouldn’t just allow your heart to feel love just once. Love is meant to be shared.

 I wish you could look back at our relationship and see how necessary it was. How it was meant to be part of our journey in life. How, you were meant to be part of my journey and I, yours. They say that we meet people for a reason. Meetings aren’t just random encounters. People meet each other because they’re meant to be part of each other’s journey. Our journey together was not long. It lasted for a short time. Some encounters are short but it’s still no less significant. I may not know it now. You may not know it now. But there was a reason why we met. Even if our journey together ended, at least we can look back and say to ourselves that we have loved.

Because we HAVE loved.